Tough weekend

[inbloomer]

Going through my first really tough weekend since quarantine started. I was managing well when it was everyone in this together, but now it's eased a bit everyone else is straight back to doing their own things and being too busy, but I still can't do the things I want to do.

And dating just feels impossibly difficult, even if in theory I might be closer to it than I have been before. I just don't feel the things I'm meant to feel - probably a mixture of being somewhere on the ace spectrum to start with, and having got hurt so many times before that I subconsciously stop myself going through that again. Frustrated.